Help or Hinder

When I was a little girl my mom would always ask- are you helping or hindering? Because sometimes I butt into peoples lives and try to give advice and solve the problems. Or I try to clean up and maybe someone isnt done using the items yet. Well I cant say that I'm always doing something great but I can say that I dont normally deliberately do things to piss people off.

Living with my grandma has been interesting. SOmetimes I question myself- am I more of a help or a hinder? Somedays I feel helpful because I drive her to the grocery store and eat dinner together so we can have a good chat. But most of the time I would say I am more of a hinder- I do not always have a tidy bedroom, kitchen sink, and bathroom. I dont open the window when I shower and steam up the room which will indeed ruin the paint. I fill up the bath tub to full which causes the water to leak downstairs. I dont take care of my laundry fast enough and think that a heavy sweater and undies will dry at the same time in an oLd dryer. I come home past midnight and forget to call when I wont be home for dinner because I have a full time job and need to stay late. I cant drop everything and get off work to take her to doctor appointments and pick up prescriptions and she doesnt want to wait until I get off work or have a day off. I am a stranger and too busy and dont spend enough time at home. I deserve the sicknesses I get because I stay out too late and do too much.

Lets just say I have a LOT to learn! I try to see the cup half full but it seems like lately I am just pestimistic and its terrible! Kind of ironic that this morning I did a Customer Service training on how to stay positive and help people. I really do like my job but I need to remember to not take things personally, just seriously and handle the situation. This morning has been rough. But ya know I guess a lesson I should learn is to be more rational and not ever be mean when I am a customer at a business even when they are retarded.

I do love my grandma! We have fun together and she is a wonderful, wise woman. I understand it is a huge adjustment when you have lived alone for the past 8 years and then have a fast paced, busy, involved 21 year old move in. She just likes what she likes. Life is a journey!